Empty Love

I loved you

I loved u all this time you said you wouldn't change

In silent hopelessness and disdain 

I kept my tears at bay

Yet i loved, loved so sincerely till this day

With an empty soul and broken heart - I carried on 

Giving you pieces of what was left

Of smiles and happiness within my chest

Beyond this point is a hollow well - Im sinking in 

But let me not trouble you again

I do not wish to cause you pain

I will love you from a far - only for sometime

So tenderly yet so in vain.

Not Enough

It's as if i am drugged

My body shut down

Only my heart beating to feelings welling inside me

The tears seem to flow without effort

Dampening the world around me

Its cloudy and unclear

Empty and unreal

If i hide myself, Might be i can still fare

Numb myself so this pain I can bear

My dreams are tinted with your memories

Your scent follows me if i run

Should i fight or should i give up?

Silent screams weaken me, put me in a spell

Missing what i never had must be a special kind of hell

I take a sigh, I try to be brave, 

I tell myself there's still hope at heavens gate

Till then i shall live with this...

I wasnt enough, i knew it too late

Broken souls cant heal others - I leave it to fate

- fia